9/5/2012 Feeling A Little Dissappointed

I have not placed an entry here for a few days, I need the time to myself and to be honest, with my brothers hospitalization, I cannot complain about being able to spend a quiet night alone, or two, or three, or this past week and a half. I look forward to my brothers return, but at the same time I look forward to it full well knowing that with that will come a new set of challenges, hurdles, and obstacles. However, I am feeling a lack of support at the moment mainly from my mom and my sister. I am trying not to rush into judgement, she may have lost her phone, or something may have come up because she too has a life she must attend to that has nothing to do with me, or my brother. However, we (me, my mother, my sister, and my brother) are at a critical point because my brothers social worker and my brother both want to talk to my mother, and as anyone who has dealt with a schizophrenic knows, these moments when family can sit down with their schizophrenic loved one, with a professional and talk about issues and concerns, it is a rare thing indeed, and frankly, I feel as if my mom is squandering a golden opportunity to gain more insight into my brother with the aid of a professional. What I fear is what kind of message will this send to my brother, that my mother does not have the time? That she is too busy to address his concerns? The truth be told, it makes me a little irritated that this opportunity seems to be taken so lightly by mom, or at least if there is something that is making it difficult for her to attend this meeting, that she is at least not communicating to either/both my brother and the social worker the issues that are keeping her from attending this meeting. I feel badly for my brother, I cannot imagine the message that is being sent to him right now while he is alone in this hospital without the aid or support of his family. I think that I am going to try to go tomorrow and bring him something, maybe a deck of cards to occupy his time, and his checkbook and bills so that he may at least have the comfort of knowing that his financial obligations are being addressed. My mother is ageing, and so I do understand that the trek across (way across) town is daunting, but mom please, at least call me, call my brother, explain to him that you can't make it, but most of all, please don't commit to something that you you don't think you can do. If family cannot make their commitments, then how can we possibly expect my brother to do the same?